This blog has been one hell of an experience. I've been writing a lot of things here, both nonsense and those heart-throbbing emotions.

But I believe this one has to end. I cannot keep up with all the updates of the site (desperately trying to change the template, 80% done with it but decided to scrap it all again). There are also a lot of other reasons out there, but I intend to keep that to myself.

Yeah, I've promised to keep this site up and running, but let's just say that I ran out of steam and the will to fight and go on. Well, a first broken promise.

I am not deleting this blog. Let's just say that I wouldn't post anything more here.

So for those of you out there that has been keeping track of what I write, and wrote here - I extend my greatest apologies to you.

...this is definitely the time to move on.

All along I thought that I was changing for the better. But you proved me wrong.

I wasn't changing at all. I'm stuck in this trance of self assurance and pride. Too much and too many assumptions.

Strength is all I need. Help me so I can help myself. I beg of you.

"I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart. What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when... I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end it doesn't even matter. I had to fall and lose it all, but in the end it doesn't even matter."

Start: 3:00 p.m.

THE line that struck me: "Client information is confidential."

End: 4:15 p.m.

Wow! Konpeedensyal...

Ina.

I hate this fucking world for producing hyprocitical people with no sense of direction in their pursue of life! They go where the fucking, "current" trend takes them to! Why do only a couple of people try to rise from this massive pile of shit imposed to us by an unknown force? Does the majority always have their way? Hell no. Fuck them! I stand against the mundane, the norm, the usual - whatever the fuck you call them! No way, in my short and fucking lifetime will I let people take me with them. Only stupids and dead fishes swim with the water's current.

Anyone out there: give me one hell of a fucking proof that there is an earthly law that dictates us on what we should do about our lives.

...and I'm gonna bet my ass there is nothing you can find about that.

I am just a man, but this doesn't mean I can't move a finger, even moons and stars about it. We, the degrading people of this wretched world are capable of anything if we set our minds to it. We can change and alter every little aspect of our lives. Make a name, a niche so you may be remembered forever - the one who opposed, who contracticted the entire mankind for the better, for its ultimate survival. Fuck, we are all going downhill. Some of you may not have noticed it yet, and I tell you now: the end is near.

We are near the breaking point.

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Rest in peace, Lolo.

February 23, 1920 - August 13, 2006